Growing up with a gender variance made me super suspicious and fearful of people. I grew up with the belief that it would be super negative if I ever let anybody in on my terrible secret. I didn’t need to be told this directly, I just knew that this was how it was supposed to be. This is, after all, a country in which many transgender people lose their homes, their jobs, their families, their lives, at the revelation of being transgender. In many ways, the public is certainly a thing to be afraid of. Which is why during my first few years of being out, the thing I felt most deeply was suspicious of other people.
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In the interest of trying everything at least once, I’ve made some regrettable beauty decisions. There was that time in 6th grade where I thought matching my lips to my face a much as possible was a goal. Then I went through a phase of skunk like blonde highlights and fake tanning. For a good portion of 2009 I had almost no eyebrows. But I’ve learned. I’m older and wiser and more in touch with who I want to be and how I want to look. I am the master of my own beauty destiny, a blank slate that I can mold into whatever I want.
I like the simplicity of this outfit; jeans, booties, sweater, and a belt. I do have a bit of jewelry on as well: necklace, earrings, bracelet, and rings. But most of that is not really visible unless you are fairly close to me. The four basic clothing items though, those are quite visible from a distance. The thing I like the most about it all? How much the belt helps to make this an outfit and not just some clothes.