… more nothing. Second week without purchasing anything, due to camel-colored coatgate.
Week 12 was the week of Christmas, and I wore this outfit to work on Christmas Eve:
Cream lace cami via Banana Republic, years ago
High-waisted black skirt via The Mexican Shop
Snaky silver belt via ARC’s Value Village
Sheer black thigh-highs by Hue
Kristen-Hi spectator pumps via John Fluevog
Faux pearls made by me
We only had to work half a day on Christmas Eve, thanks to our generous management, and MANY people asked me why the hell I was so dressed up. I had no real excuse.
The cami pictured here was a very expensive impulse buy about 4 years back. It’s utterly gorgeous, with lots of depth and color to the creamy lace. I think it set me back $80 or something ridiculous like that and I don’t think I’ve worn it in at least two years, maybe three. What with the recent lacy trend, I thought it was a perfect candidate for wardrobe revival!
I got rather a large amount of cash from my generous in-laws and granny, which – you’ll be unsurprised to hear – was spent online IMMEDIATELY. Yup, on your advice, the advice of Husband Mike, and my own advice, I decided I could spend my gift money on anything I wanted. And having been unable to buy new clothing, shoes, and accessories for a full three months, that’s exactly what I spend my holiday moolah on. In frighteningly record time.
On the off chance you’re curious, I bought:
Kind of a lot of black and white stuff for a girl who rails on and on about color, eh? Well, these quasi-basics were all on the list, and even though I’m a little ashamed to admit how quick I was to purchase them all, I felt both pragmatic and satisfied with every single item. ESPECIALLY those boots, which I’d been lusting after since I tried them on in Chicago at Thanksgiving. Yum!
This spending spree differed from holiday blitzes of years past in several good ways:
- I didn’t spend my gift money AND a bunch more of my own money on top of it. I spent exactly what I was given, and not a penny more.
- I didn’t feel disappointed and empty after making all of my purchases, but instead merely felt excited to get them delivered to my back porch.
- I didn’t allow myself any in-person shopping, either once the gift money was received or after it had all been spent. I am much more inclined to overspend when faced with multitudinous bargains in person. By buying everything online, I could just narrow down my pre-selected wishlist items, and that helped me maintain focus. Since I didn’t cruise the shops afterwards, I wasn’t tempted to just keep spending even after the money was gone.
However, the fact that I bought all of this stuff before even DEPOSITING some of my gift money just proves to me that I am learning about myself … but not necessarily changing. And a recent conversation with a girlfriend made me realize that the most I can really hope for – without petitioning outside help, perhaps from an actual 12-step program – is just to gain awareness. My urges are unlikely to change, and I will still spend like a madwoman when I give myself permission to do so. My goal should really be mindfulness and impulse control, not a total transformation of my thoughts and behaviors surrounding spending.
It was both enlightening and a little disappointing to have to reexamine my end-goal and pare it down. But better to understand what I’m reasonably capable of and achieve my goal than to set a pie-in-the-sky goal and fall short.
Stay tuned for more underutilized wardrobe fun!